Sorry for another bitchy journal.

Yes, I am being bitchy over a little something about my grammar problems and I'm sorry I bitched over my comments, as you would see...

I know I'm hypocritical for saying this... years ago, I used to lack comments on my DW fan art because I was too shy and I find it impolite to ask for watchers and I was a being some bitchy 14 year old n00b wanting comments then as I got comments, I wanted more watchers and when I got to 15 years old, I noticed devs celebrate pageviews and so I decided to celebrate but the trouble is, I didn't get a 1000 in time with my full year (I logged off for the first 4 months because I forgotten about dA) and the other devs managed to get their before their whole year and I then bitched about my comics because no was looking at them... years later, when I went on forums because I wanted more watchers, then the newbs wanted attention too and so I decided to help but later they never posted their WORK for months or years ago unlike me, I always post at least a few deviations every month.

As I finally ended up with 5000 pageviews and 1000 views on my comic and getting comments with the unsual devs for example Marvin Hoovering, I was finaly getting repected but I got busy with GSCE's and I had my author friends, I forgot about being popular. A month later, I got obsessed with WALL-E, I did a fan art and afterward I was shocked when I got so many favs and even comments and it was crappy to start off with.

Many months later, I forgotten about my pageviews but noticed I had over 10, 000 but I forgot to celebrate because I was too lazy, too busy recovering from exams, enjoying my subbie and being respected like getting enough comments, favs (even if I was sick of fav whores) and watchers.

Now I feel guilty for all these, that is part why I didn't really bother to get my subbie renewed.


I think I'm too spoilt these days with all the respect especially with a subbie. The others is, moving on from school to college which is a new routine and being lonely, being unwell, some dev (she is my friend) wanting to draw my character too much, homework and is frustrated because of the personal thing girls have once a month and I get so moody with and finally, I'm 17 and I might be going through another angst phase but not as bad as when I was 15.

I think I'm just a sterotypical dev who moans and rants over a little something if goes too far.